Tuesday, October 02, 2007

and how can I stand here with You, and not be moved by You?

You know it's not going to be an enjoyable day when you wake up in the morning and the first thing you do is realize last night really did happen, and before your day has even began really... you just cry.

right now I'm the girl on her knees. I'm realizing there is nothing left in me, so I bury my head in the carpet and scream up at the God who loves me so and pains me so... what do you want from me, I'm yours. Take me. Break me. Make me. Not my plans- YOUR plans. Hear my cries. They're all for you. How can you do this to me when you love me? I don't understand. I can't understand. I can't turn away from you, but I don't want to look at you right now.

I hate this day already, I hate it.

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